pain

I guess pain is inevitable but right now I really can't deal. I let my gaurd down to trust and love and this is wat happens. I get hurt.... Woke up out of my sleep crying cuz it hurts so much that my dreams are all about him and someone else. Can I see her no but its not me and that's what hurts. It may sound crazy to you but my dreams always come true and this is one I wish won't. I do wish him happiness and peace but it hurts to think it won't come from me. Wat is pain?? Relationships, bad friendships and so much more. It all hurts so bad but if I want to move forward I have to ask God for forgiveness and give it over to him. Its always said what God is tearing apart let no man keep together.... Well God I'm humble at your service where I should have been from the start!!!!

It HURTS now to just be SIMPLY_ME....