so much on me

I HAVE SO MUCH ON ME MORE SO ON MY MIND ITS CRAZY...
I DON'T FEEL LIKE ME AT ALLIN MY SITUATION...ITS LIKE I'm CHANGING TO FIT WHAT HE WANTS ME TO BE BUT ITS HELL TO GET HIM TO DO THE SAME...
I FEEL MORE INVESTED IN THIS WHOLE THING THAN HE DOES. LIKE I'm PUTTING MY ALL INTO IT BUT I CAN'T GET IT IN RETURN!! I'm NOT HAPPY LIKE I WAS BEFORE.... WAT SHOULD I DO SHOULD I FOLLOW MY HEART AND LEAVE OR KEEP HOLDING ON TO THIS CRUTCH CUZ I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE??

WAS THIS JUST A LEAF ON MY TREE THAT I'm TRYING TO MAKE A ROOT?? SOMEONE PLEASE HELP!!!!

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SO HUGGY BEAR WENT TO NO AND WON'T RESPOND TO MY TEXTS!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING TO US BUT I'm TIRED OF TRYING!! I DON'T FEEL HE WANTS THIS ANYMORE!! I'm NOT SURE IF I DO!! THIS IS TO MUCH FOR ME TO WORRY ABOUT....I'm TIRED OF BEING SECOND TO EVER FEMALE THAT'S NOT APRT OF HIS FAMILY!! I'm DONE!!