so much on me

I HAVE SO MUCH ON ME MORE SO ON MY MIND ITS CRAZY...
I DON'T FEEL LIKE ME AT ALLIN MY SITUATION...ITS LIKE I'm CHANGING TO FIT WHAT HE WANTS ME TO BE BUT ITS HELL TO GET HIM TO DO THE SAME...
I FEEL MORE INVESTED IN THIS WHOLE THING THAN HE DOES. LIKE I'm PUTTING MY ALL INTO IT BUT I CAN'T GET IT IN RETURN!! I'm NOT HAPPY LIKE I WAS BEFORE.... WAT SHOULD I DO SHOULD I FOLLOW MY HEART AND LEAVE OR KEEP HOLDING ON TO THIS CRUTCH CUZ I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE??

WAS THIS JUST A LEAF ON MY TREE THAT I'm TRYING TO MAKE A ROOT?? SOMEONE PLEASE HELP!!!!