OKAY SO THERE IS THIS RULE CALLED THE 80/20 RIGHT??
SO AS YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH SO MUCH WITH
MY FEELINGS, MY LIFE (BOTH PERSONAL AND FAM).
ITS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO EXPRESS MYSELF TO PEOPLE AND
I THINK NO I KNOW THAT I USE THIS AS AN OUTLET TO LET MY SELF
BE HEARD UNTIL I CAN FIND THE RIGHT TIME TO EXPRESS THEM.
SO THIS WHOLE BLOGGING THING HELPS ME TO REEVALUATE SOME OF THE
PREVIOUS PROSPECTIVES I HAVE STATED BEFORE...
I MEAN I JUST LOVE TO VENT ON HERE AND GET IT ALL OUT. NOW I KNOW
THIS IS NOT GOING WITH THE TITLE RIGHT NOW BUT BEAR WITH ME.
I KNOW THAT I CAN BE A BITCH AND TIMES AND I EVEN KNOW THAT SOMETIMES
I AM AT FAULT FOR THINGS BUT I WILL NOT ADMIT THAT TO PERSON
AT HAND I HAVE DONE WRONG OR UPSET....
I THINK ITS A PRIDE ISSUE WITH ME......A MISOGYNISTIC MIND SET IF YOU WILL...
NOW I KNOW THAT I GIVE 80 TO 100 IN ALL RELATIONSHIPS SO I FEEL THAT I
FIT THE 80 ASPECT OF THE 80/20 RULE.....I AM A GREAT GIRL AND DESERVE TO
BE TREATED AS SUCH...WHAT I THINK FALLS APART FOR ME IS WHEN
THE PERSON I AM WITH GETS CAUGHT UP IN MY KINDNESS AND ME EXPRESSING
MY TRUE FEELINGS ITS TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF....
I ALWAYS MAKE EXCUSES FOR THEM "WELL HE DOESN'T MEAN IT....", "I THINK ITS SOMETHING I DID..." OR SOME BS LIKE THAT....
I MEAN YEA I MAKE MISTAKES BUT IT TAKES TWO TO MAKE THE ARGUMENT
HAPPEN. THERE IS NO WAY THAT EVERYDAY I TALK TO SOMEONE I
GET ANNOYED BY THEM JUST SAYING "HI" TO ME.....THIS IS CRAZY...
MAYBE HE IS MY 20....NOT MY 80....
SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE OTHER FEMALES(OUTSIDE OF FAM OF COURSE) ARE
MORE IMPORTANT TO HIM KEEPING HAPPY THAN ME......HE DOESN'T SEE
THAT HE SEES IT AS I AM JUST TRYING TO GET HIM TO CUT ALL FEMALE FRIEND
TIES BUT I AM JUST ASKING FOR THE RESPECT I DESERVE....I GIVE HIM
THAT RESPECT BUT I GUESS HE IS MORE CONCERNED OF MAKING SURE HE HAS BACKUP CHICKS AND HE IS NOT FOCUSING ON ME....
THAT CAN BE A PROBLEM...
MEN WHEN YOU HAVE 80 MAKE SURE YOU ARE DOING WHATEVER YOU CAN TO
KEEP THEM HAPPY CUZ AS QUICK AS WE CAME IS AS QUICK AS WE WILL GO
AND MY FUSE IS GETTING SHORTER AND SHORTER....
I DONT KNOW IF ITS WORTH IT ANYMORE..MY HEART SAYS LEAVE BUT MY MIND SAYS STAY CUZ HE IS A REALLY GOOD GUY....BUT IN ALL REALNESS NO ONE ELSE SEES WHAT I SEE ON A REGULAR BASIS AND HEARS WHAT I HEAR ON A REGULAR BASIS. THEY ONLY KNOW HIM AS A FRIEND BUT I KNOW HIM AS MUCH MORE....
WHAT TO DO I DONT KNOW BUT PRAYER IS DEFINITELY THE WAY TO GET MY ANSWER.....
IM 80 BUT ONLY GETTING 20 AND ALWAYS BEING......Simply_Me....
Saturday, July 4, 2009
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