NOUN: Person, Place or Thing...IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP THAT IS...

Sometimes I feel like I over think things but then again its how I feel
you can never over think your feelings toward a person, place or thing...
I can honestly say that yea I do over think but thats because whoever the person
maybe underthinks my feelings in the situation and how it would effect me...
I know it hurts but sometimes I just want to grab hold of the person, place or thing and
shake the hell out of them and tell them to "STOP LOOKING FOR WHATS RIGHT
IN FRONT OF YOU"...
Being real hell I had to shake myself and realize what I have in front of me...
I having feelings towards a certain person, place, or thing and it does not dig me the
same way....GOSH DARNIT IT HURTS... Hell it even drives you to seek that approval,
love and desire to be with you from someone else...
but lets be real what you are not getting from the person, place or thing in front of you is simply
b/c you have not openned your mouth to that person, place, or thing and let them
know "HEY I FEEL NEGLECTED, I DONT FEEL LIKE A TOP PRIORITY IN YOUR LIFE, I FEEL LIKE THIS AND THAT ETC...." but what you need to be ready to hear
is "WHAT ABOUT HOW I FEEL" shocker huh???
See what most people do in a relationship is forget to replace that "I" with and "U"...
cuz when you are in a relationship with that person, place or thing its not all about you...its about us, we, and our....
You can not wait for the questions of
"WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE IT BETTER"
its
"WHAT CAN WE DO TO MAKE IT BETTER"
you have to be humble enough to know that it takes two to get into an argument or
throw petty blows...
Now if you are like me and its hard to express yourself to your person, place or thing b/c you
are fragile and do not want your feelings to be taken lightly
or used against you in anyway...then let the person, place or thing know that...
Its going to be hard b/c no on changes overnight but as a couple if you really
want the best for that person and you feel its not you b/c you want to still explore
or you are just toooooo fragile to handle then LET THEM KNOW.....
not only have I done this before but I have watched ppl hang on to a person, place or thing
they have no genuine interest in being with anymore....its not bad to fall out of like or love
with someone that just shows maturity at its finest....
you have to be able to be real and say look 'I CAN NOT HANDLE WE ANYMORE...
I LOVED THE IDEA OF WE AT THE BEGINNING BUT IT HAS DWINDLED BACK TO I...I
LOVED YOUR CONVO AND PRESENCE BUT NOW WE DONT LOVE EACH OTHERS CONVO, PRESENCES AND PERSONALITY...THE "I" THAT I HAVE GROWN INTO CAN NO LONGER HANDLE "WE"...."
Now I know yall are thinking OH DAMN SHE IS ABOUT TO DROP THE BALL but no I believe in fighting for my WE no matter how hard the storms come or how petty the arguments get...... What I have learned from my current person, place, or thing is that its gonna be a fight but
do not just jump ship b/c shit is not going your way....
when you are in a relatuonshup its about COMPROMISE....now see i had to learn
the hard way that its not all about SIMPLY_ME...its about....SIMPLY WE....
I use to worry more about how I felt and not asked my person, place or thing how
he felt in the situation......My feelings have been hurt and I may or may not have hurt his in return and honestly THATS THE LAST THING I WANT TO DO....
See my person, place or thing is someone I know I can trust in any situation
but I dont think I am good at handling people telling me stuff that contradicts what my person,
place or thing says or does.... believe me SOME DAYS I HAVE TRIPPED FOR NOTHING...lol...I know its not funny to start stupid arguments but it trips me out when I think back on it!!!!
I will say that some stuff I feel I was manipulated and reverse psychologied (i know its not a word...lol) into thinking I was wrong for bringing it up but being the person
that I am I am not a master of arguing but im not a master of expressing feelings either to my
person, place or thing which can cause arguments but im working on it...lol
Now I can say I love to write but he hates to read it but he makes the sacrafice and does
it b/c its how I feel and my best way to express and how I can get everything out....
Now my person, place or thing worked hard and we and now its seems the roles have switched..
he got tired of working hard and me not putting forth the same effort for TEAM WE and now I am feeling the same way he was wanting to just say fuck it....
being real I love my Person, Place or thing through the storm b/c I learn something new
from him everyday......Besides God and My Mom and family and money he is my motivation to do great things in life...... To hear him say im proud lightens up my day but he just does not know it....

but i love my PERSON, PLACE OR THING and right now he is more than enough for me but i am never neive.....


I'm just being....SIMPLY_ME

CAN YOU HANDLE IT....LOL

80 or 20...i wonder....

OKAY SO THERE IS THIS RULE CALLED THE 80/20 RIGHT??
SO AS YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH SO MUCH WITH
MY FEELINGS, MY LIFE (BOTH PERSONAL AND FAM).
ITS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO EXPRESS MYSELF TO PEOPLE AND
I THINK NO I KNOW THAT I USE THIS AS AN OUTLET TO LET MY SELF
BE HEARD UNTIL I CAN FIND THE RIGHT TIME TO EXPRESS THEM.

SO THIS WHOLE BLOGGING THING HELPS ME TO REEVALUATE SOME OF THE
PREVIOUS PROSPECTIVES I HAVE STATED BEFORE...
I MEAN I JUST LOVE TO VENT ON HERE AND GET IT ALL OUT. NOW I KNOW
THIS IS NOT GOING WITH THE TITLE RIGHT NOW BUT BEAR WITH ME.

I KNOW THAT I CAN BE A BITCH AND TIMES AND I EVEN KNOW THAT SOMETIMES
I AM AT FAULT FOR THINGS BUT I WILL NOT ADMIT THAT TO PERSON
AT HAND I HAVE DONE WRONG OR UPSET....
I THINK ITS A PRIDE ISSUE WITH ME......A MISOGYNISTIC MIND SET IF YOU WILL...
NOW I KNOW THAT I GIVE 80 TO 100 IN ALL RELATIONSHIPS SO I FEEL THAT I
FIT THE 80 ASPECT OF THE 80/20 RULE.....I AM A GREAT GIRL AND DESERVE TO
BE TREATED AS SUCH...WHAT I THINK FALLS APART FOR ME IS WHEN
THE PERSON I AM WITH GETS CAUGHT UP IN MY KINDNESS AND ME EXPRESSING
MY TRUE FEELINGS ITS TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF....
I ALWAYS MAKE EXCUSES FOR THEM "WELL HE DOESN'T MEAN IT....", "I THINK ITS SOMETHING I DID..." OR SOME BS LIKE THAT....
I MEAN YEA I MAKE MISTAKES BUT IT TAKES TWO TO MAKE THE ARGUMENT
HAPPEN. THERE IS NO WAY THAT EVERYDAY I TALK TO SOMEONE I
GET ANNOYED BY THEM JUST SAYING "HI" TO ME.....THIS IS CRAZY...
MAYBE HE IS MY 20....NOT MY 80....

SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE OTHER FEMALES(OUTSIDE OF FAM OF COURSE) ARE
MORE IMPORTANT TO HIM KEEPING HAPPY THAN ME......HE DOESN'T SEE
THAT HE SEES IT AS I AM JUST TRYING TO GET HIM TO CUT ALL FEMALE FRIEND
TIES BUT I AM JUST ASKING FOR THE RESPECT I DESERVE....I GIVE HIM
THAT RESPECT BUT I GUESS HE IS MORE CONCERNED OF MAKING SURE HE HAS BACKUP CHICKS AND HE IS NOT FOCUSING ON ME....
THAT CAN BE A PROBLEM...

MEN WHEN YOU HAVE 80 MAKE SURE YOU ARE DOING WHATEVER YOU CAN TO
KEEP THEM HAPPY CUZ AS QUICK AS WE CAME IS AS QUICK AS WE WILL GO
AND MY FUSE IS GETTING SHORTER AND SHORTER....
I DONT KNOW IF ITS WORTH IT ANYMORE..MY HEART SAYS LEAVE BUT MY MIND SAYS STAY CUZ HE IS A REALLY GOOD GUY....BUT IN ALL REALNESS NO ONE ELSE SEES WHAT I SEE ON A REGULAR BASIS AND HEARS WHAT I HEAR ON A REGULAR BASIS. THEY ONLY KNOW HIM AS A FRIEND BUT I KNOW HIM AS MUCH MORE....

WHAT TO DO I DONT KNOW BUT PRAYER IS DEFINITELY THE WAY TO GET MY ANSWER.....

IM 80 BUT ONLY GETTING 20 AND ALWAYS BEING......Simply_Me....

so much on me

I HAVE SO MUCH ON ME MORE SO ON MY MIND ITS CRAZY...
I DON'T FEEL LIKE ME AT ALLIN MY SITUATION...ITS LIKE I'm CHANGING TO FIT WHAT HE WANTS ME TO BE BUT ITS HELL TO GET HIM TO DO THE SAME...
I FEEL MORE INVESTED IN THIS WHOLE THING THAN HE DOES. LIKE I'm PUTTING MY ALL INTO IT BUT I CAN'T GET IT IN RETURN!! I'm NOT HAPPY LIKE I WAS BEFORE.... WAT SHOULD I DO SHOULD I FOLLOW MY HEART AND LEAVE OR KEEP HOLDING ON TO THIS CRUTCH CUZ I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE??

WAS THIS JUST A LEAF ON MY TREE THAT I'm TRYING TO MAKE A ROOT?? SOMEONE PLEASE HELP!!!!

.:::::PROBLEMS::::.

SO HUGGY BEAR WENT TO NO AND WON'T RESPOND TO MY TEXTS!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING TO US BUT I'm TIRED OF TRYING!! I DON'T FEEL HE WANTS THIS ANYMORE!! I'm NOT SURE IF I DO!! THIS IS TO MUCH FOR ME TO WORRY ABOUT....I'm TIRED OF BEING SECOND TO EVER FEMALE THAT'S NOT APRT OF HIS FAMILY!! I'm DONE!!

.::HELLO::.

I HAVE NOT BEEN ON HERE IN A WHILE BUT I JUST WANT
MY BF MBOOGIE TO KNOW THAT I LOVE HER AND I
AM HERE FOR HER. I HAVE BEEN FACING ALOT OF MY DEMONS
LATELY AND KNOCKING THEM DOWN ONE BY ONE.

GOD IS THE CENTER OF MY LIFE AND HE WILL GUIDE ME
THROUGH. PEACE IS LOVE


I'm just being.....SIMPLY_ME

hmmmm.

I SWEAR ITS SOME MORE BS EVERYDAY....

..::WHAT AM I GOING TO DO::..

I FEEL LIKE I AM LOOSING HIM....
I WAS ALWAYS TOLD NOT TO PUT MORE IN THEN YOU GET BUT
I REALLY FEEL LIKE HE IS THE RIGHT ONE TO HELP ME THROUGH MY TRIALS...

I THINK HE MIGHT BE SCARED TO LOVE ME OR JUST DOES
NOT SEE ME AND HIM GOING THAT FAR BUT
HUGGY BEAR CAN SAY HE HAS ME...

I HAVE NEVER BEEN WITH A GUY AND NOT HAD A "TEAM" ON THE SIDE
BUT WITH HIM I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT....
I CAN RELEASE MYSELF BUT I MAKE IT SO HARD FOR HIM
TO GET IN... MAYBE ITS ME WHO DOES NOT WANT
TO LET HIM CARE FOR ME...
I JUST FEEL LIKE I'M NOT WORTH ALL THE LOVE AND ATTENTION
HE GIVES SOMETIMES....

IDK BUT I HAVE TO GET TOGETHER CUZ I AM LOOSING HIM...
(F.Y.I. ONLY SEX WITH THE MAIN THE OTHERS WERE TO KEEP ME ENTERTAINED)

I'm just being....SIMPLY_ME....